Well the night before last night I was watching a special on TLC about

Kendra and Maliyah Herrin. For those of you who don't know who they are you should go to
http://www.herrintwins.com/. They were conjoined twins that were separated by the same surgeon who did Collin's surgery. Their surgery was the day before Collin died, all day long. I remember the news crews were there and there was a lot of commotion about it. On the TV special about the twins they also showed the Collin's surgeon and another surgeon. I absolutely hated seeing Collin's surgeon on TV then and I still hate it now. The twins surgery made her famous. Collin's surgery was nothing to her. I'm not blaming her, she didn't do anything wrong in Collin's surgery.

It's just how rude she was to us, acting like how dare we ask for her to do his surgery when she clearly had her fame to worry about. It's so frustrating. For her to say she wouldn't do Collin's surgery because he would die anyway, but then separate conjoined twins!!! Are you kidding me? I hope that my irritation at the doctor does in no way reflect how I feel about the twins getting a chance at a normal life. I am so very happy that they were successfully separated. I think that is a medical miracle and God should be given the glory on their lives. I think it's amazing. This special that was on TV, exactly 3 years and 2 days since their surgery and they are getting prosthetic legs. My frustration is that I don't understand why my son's surgery had to be so much less important than the twins. Were their lives of greater value to her? So maybe there was a greater chance of survival with them, conjoined twins. Please! Even if she truly believed that my son had no chance at all, is it completely necessary to make that thought so blatantly obvious to me? Well I know this has been kind of a rant but seeing that TV special just brought up all that. I guess I need to ask God to help me forgive that woman for her harsh behavior toward me, praise Him for using his hands to separate those twins and ask him to remind me that He's still in control.