The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge. (Proverbs 1:7)
It's been a while since my last post, this time not because I was slacking off, but because sometimes it actually takes days to get through one dare. I'm not always able to connect with Jordan when I want to and I sometimes I have to try a couple times before he will respond. Also, even though the dare was done a few days ago, this is the first chance I've had to write about it. In addition to that the thoughts and emotions going through my head during this actual dare are not exactly fresh on my mind as they have been with most of the previous dare posts.
On dare 15 I mentioned that I was going to try to make a habit of calling Jordan every week on Sunday. I have every intention of doing that, but then yesterday I wasn't able to. I called him today and we had a 30 second conversations. His answers to all my questions were "yeah" or "ok" or "I don't know". I think I need to start coming up with questions that require more than a one word or simply a sound type of response. I say that with a tone of humor because in addition to the aspergers type mannerisms, he's a boy so connecting with him on the phone is especially challenging. However, I just have to remember that despite his unwillingness to tell me so, he does actually like me and want to talk to me. I just have to constantly remind myself of that and rely on my parents to give me cues about how he responds to certain things. It's definitely a process.
I began typing this up days ago... in fact, I think it was almost a week ago. The truth is, I've made a point to spend about half as much time sitting at my computer and here in my lap sits about twice as much work to do. It seems like lately if I'm at my computer I'm busy working on editing pictures, creating a catalog or working on something else. I'm trying to balance everything and this has been getting pushed to the wayside.
To continue on about the 16th dare. I thought it important to share that this chapter was all about showing your kids how you love God and God loves them. For the homework I read Psalm 139 and prayed verses 23-24 over him. In my case, my sins before he was born and before I put my faith in Jesus, are affecting us to this day. The consequences will be long lasting when it comes to the relationship with Jordan. Even though I've asked God's forgiveness, I still have work to do to gain forgiveness from Jordan.
After I read that Psalm and prayed for him, I intended to ask him to read it to, but ended up just asking if he ever reads the Psalms. He told me that they had recently studied that at church. That was how our conversation ended.
I ask for your prayers that I will have blessing over my time management and that I will still be able to blog about how this journey is going. I not only hope to encourage others to take a step in faith when it comes to loving their children and pushing their limits, I also like to have it for myself as a kind of journal that I can go back and read when I will need to remember how this started.
